After heartache, sadness and months of wondering when we would become pregnant again, I’m so ecstatic to tell you; we are expecting!
As excited as we are to announce this beautiful and fantastic news we are terrified at the same time. Me probably more than Jacob.
I have shared a little about this before, my pregnancy with Jace was a breeze, and so was my delivery. Nothing went wrong, and all seemed fine as Jace was growing in my belly. Then when he was born, we hit a ton of turbulence and still have been on this crazy plane ride that seems like it’s never going to end.
This pregnancy has come with its scares from the very beginning. My second appointment (when I thought I was about seven weeks) I had asked for an ultrasound because of our recent miscarriage back in October. When we went in I was terrified, I felt fine I didn’t have any symptoms that would tell me otherwise, but there is history there that I was afraid of.
The ultrasound tech asked a few questions, and there we saw our precious little baby and the heartbeat! She measured the baby and told us, “you’re six weeks and four days; and babies heart rate is 115” My heart sunk. I felt like we were reliving our nightmare.
Those numbers were the exact same numbers to the day with our loss of our sweet Avery. In a time that we should be rejoicing, I was scared.
Of course, I held it together until we got to the car and lost it. “Why? What are the odds of that?” I asked my husband. His response was the sweetest and so true, “I feel like this is the Lord asking if we trust Him.” I cried even harder because he was right. In times when we don’t have answers or control how do we get through those fears?
Jacob prayed over the baby and our family right then and there. This entire pregnancy and the last one we have prayed and will continue to pray that the Lord would give us the strength for whatever His plan is for this baby.
When I was pregnant with Jace, I prayed so specifically for supernatural things. That our son would have ten fingers and ten toes and healthy lungs, a healthy heart, and guess what? The Lord provided all of those things.
In these last few years, we have learned that sometimes the Lord doesn’t give us what we ask for because He knows the plans for our lives and our children’s lives better than we think we do.
All that we have been through with Jace I wouldn’t ask for anything different because we have grown spiritually, emotionally and stronger as a couple.
At week 11 in this pregnancy, I started spotting one night. It was too late to call the doctors, and I figured I would call in the morning. Now mind you I never spotted, not once with Jace. So, of course, I thought of the worst. The doctors wanted to see me that day to get an ultrasound.
There goes my Cortisol levels- I was stressed.
We watched the screen and then we saw our sweet baby moving all around, with his/her hand near their face. I smiled so big and looked at Jacob. We both had a sigh of relief. Babies heart rate was healthy and growing just fine!
I did find out though that I have partial placenta previa. Which explains the spotting and continued spotting that I have had.
I will continue to be monitored throughout the pregnancy; it doesn’t affect the baby but might change how I will deliver this cutie.
We also have a big ultrasound scheduled for June that will check for any malformations due to all that Jace was born and diagnosed with. Because all of Jace’s abnormalities are internal, we might not know until the baby is born, just like Jace’s story but the doctors and we will at least be prepared this time around.
Regardless of the situation or possible diagnosis of something, we are beyond blessed and incredibly thankful for this precious life! We are so grateful the Lord saw it fit for us to be parents to these children and we are forever thankful for that!
We are incredibly thrilled to have a November baby! “Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change.” James1.17